Farewells..

As funerals go, this was actually a rather nice one. Understated, no hysterics, absolutely beautiful flowers, and a lovely service. The wake was full of friendly faces - is it awful to say that I actually even quite enjoyed it? I think I felt some form of closure, and although totally heart wrenching to say goodbye, it couldn''t have been done in a better way. I know I will miss her for the rest of my days.

The eulogy went fine. In fact it went more than fine - an inner voice emerged, and I managed to talk slowly and clearly and even with some intonation. Having stood up in front of the packed church, I simply took a deep breath and pretended that I was alone with Susan. I have never been so relieved in my whole life, that a) they all loved it, and b) that I managed to do it without croaking. I really wanted it to go well - for Mark mostly, and of course the rest of his family.

Last night I went for a drink with Lynn in the village. She has been great actually - very supportive, and able to down copius amounts of beer. I have to say thought that I have been really touched by ALL my friends. Jen - the plant and cards and supportive texts have been appreciated more than you will ever know - and to all the wonderful friends that have sent us supportive texts and emails and cards, I really really thank you. I am a lucky lucky girl.

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